Look to the blowing Rose about us

"Lo, Laughing," she says, "into the world I blow"

Everything is changing so fast for me.  In less that 3 days I will become a mother.  This has thrown me into some sort of spin- my head always seems up in the clouds.

What can one do to prepare for motherhood?  It doesn't seem like much.  I guess most of what one need to know is acquired through experience, but that doesn't inspire me with much confidence.  I will be responsible for the life of a child- the pressure doesn't get much stronger than that.  I've always been a mature person, but this level of responsibility is daunting.

Wish me luck.

This poem touched a nerve... and I have never even experienced something like it before!  Thought I would share it...

"By Small and Small: Midnight to Four A.M."
Jack Gilbert

For eleven years I have regretted it,
regretted that I did not do what
I wanted to do as I sat there those
four hours watching her die. I wanted
to crawl in among the machinery
and hold her in my arms, knowing
the elementary, leftover bit of her
mind would dimly recognize it was me
carrying her to where she was going.

Post Thanksgiving Thoughts
Another Thanksgiving come and gone...

Haven't spent much time on LJ- I've been trying to write for NaNoWriMo instead! There are only 5 days left in November, so I know I won't have 50K words in time, but I think this has been a good experience. Having only written short stories up until now, I realize just how difficult it is to string together a comprehensive plot that lasts more than a few pages. Perhaps I shall try again next year and actually succeed! :)

I have also been thinking about what I should quilt next. Being the oldest in my family and extended family means that I haven't had a chance to try out my cool giraffe project yet :P  No one is having babies!  Not yet anyway...  I have always loved simple designs and this caught my eye... I love the crisp white against the hexagons.  Hmm... maybe it is time to hit up the library's craft section!


Literary thoughts...
Continuing along in the vein of literary thinking, I went through my poetry/quotation folder earlier today and stumbled upon some passages that I'd written down and forgotten about. The problem with a hand-kept journal of inspiration is that it is very difficult to organize T_T

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Up and running again?
Been a while since I actually posted anything here :P My computer exploded and Hubbs wants to build me one from scratch. I have been patiently biding my time, but the motherboard was DOA, so I finally broke down and got on Hubbs' crappy lap top. It'll be another week before the new motherboard arrives. RAWR.

Sometimes when I am away from the internet for an extended period of time I wonder if I even want to get involved with it again. Especially Facebook- I feel so out of the loop after not being on for days and days. But I enjoy LJ- people are interesting and there are communities that I'm interested in, so I thought I'd try to be a better citizen of LJ :)

I have in the intervening months since my last post acquired a soul-sucking, mind-numbingly dull job. To help me retain what little bit of creativity I have left I decided to try out a writing prompt site. It is actually kind of intimidating! You are provided with a word and a 60 second timer and space to write. It takes me about 15 seconds just to start putting words down, so my submissions so far have been pretty crappy >_< But I think it is a good sign that once the time is up, I want to keep writing. After all, the site is just a tool to get me thinking :)

Now that I live in a desert, I have to garden appropriately. Thus, Hubbs and I are off to a cactus/succulent sale this morning :) Should be fun!

Japonisme and Art Nouveau.... kinda
Lately I've been trying to add more non-fiction to my reading diet.  Currently I am devouring "Japonisme Comes to America: The Japanese Impact on the Graphic Arts 1876-1925" and it is dry but really interesting (is that even possible?).  It doesn't have much to say about actual Japanese artists, but it does give some in depth info on various Westerners who learned to mimic certain styles (woodcuts, print-making, etc).  I think my favorite one in the book so far is "The Homecoming" by Bertha Lum:

 The Homecoming, Lum, Bertha

I might be biased- I am currently redoing my office and these are the colors I want to use :)

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Strive to be happy
I recently watched Pirates of the Caribbean 4.  I wouldn't recommend it.  Johnny looks good as always, but a hunky pirate isn't enough to save that movie.  At first glance I thought the missionary/mermaid relationship might be interesting, but no .__.

Anyway, the point is that before I went I did a little research on the character of Captain Jack Sparrow (not in depth, just Wikipedia) and found out that Sparrow has Max Ehrmann's Desiderata tattooed on his back.  After reading the whole poem I thought I'd post it here since it is quite beautiful :)

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

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I especially like the lines "be gentle with yourself.  You are a child of the universe, no less than the tress and the stars; you have a right to be here,"  and "With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.  Be cheerful.  Strive to be happy."

If you like this poem, you should read If-- by Rudyard Kipling- my favorite poem since i was a kid :)

Sometimes you feel like a meme...
It's national book week- grab the 3 closest books to you, turn to page 56, post the 5th sentences.  Don't post the title!

1. The forest walks are wide and spacious,/And many unfrequented plots there are,/Fitted by kind for rape and villainy.

2. She had quite a lot of sex appeal, too, if you really want to know.

3. Impressions were never numbered, however (nor were prints signed individually, as they are in the West), so the exact quantities are difficult to determine.

Ah... national book week.  Make sure you check out a new one and hug a teacher!  :)
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Something about the best laid plans...
Tonight was supposed to be a fun night with Hubbs... we had dinner out at one of our favorite restaurants and had rented Ugetsu, a Japanese ghost story that we had wanted to see for a while.  BUT. 

But, but, but... and I swear this ALWAYS happens... the DVD was scratched beyond repair.  It seriously looks like someone took a bit of steel wool to it.

So... we tried to get a movie on TV, but literally the only one showing was Sliding Doors, staring Gwyneth Paltrow from the late 90s.  *le sigh*  The movie wasn't actually that bad, but it was a bit of a let down after our DVD plans fell through.  Also, since it was Friday night the commercials were pandering to a certain crowd- it was full of funeral service providers, reverse mortgage information and and AARP specials.  Also, I have the unfortunate habit of speaking in an English accent whenever I hear one, and the movie took place in London 0_0  I don't even like English accents, but I'm sure I'll be suppressing the urge to talk with one for the rest of the night! 

I would love some film recommendations for next Friday- I am determined to have a traditional dinner-and-a-movie Friday even if it kills me! :)  And I will be checking the back of the DVD next time >:/

Popped my heart seams
Discovered a fabulous quotation this morning:

"If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together, there is something you must always remember: You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart, I'll always be with you."
-- A. A. Milne (Winnie-the-Pooh)


I want to one day tell my children this- it is just about the sweetest thing.

But... then I had to go and ruin it by searching for other A. A. Milne quotations on the internet.  And man, there are a million of them.  And each one is just as sweet as the one above.  Don't click this if you like your sugar in small doses: Milne is the Honey Smacks of literature


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